It’s a celebration day, Happy Mother’s Day to mamas and the soon to be mamas. Hope your day will be wonderful. There are 22 babies to be born and have been born this year so far. It appears to be the year of the baby.
I had a very surprizing visit with my mother on Thursday morning. The scene rolls around in my head again and again. It would be the perfect scenario if…
If it had been mom’s last moments before she passed, it would have been perfect. As you know mom has a type of dementia which has gotten worse since December. She vacilates between knowing me and not knowing me, being angry and closing her eyes signifying I am not in the room.
Thursday morning she was dozing in her bed when I brought the clean clothes back. We had the “You are not my mother” routine. Then she dozed off again. I did my thing. A few moments later, something startled her awake. Fear rolled off her. I put my hand on her hands and I rested my cheek on her forehead, telling her it is okay, it’s only me, it’s alright. She settled back into sleep again.
When I was ready to go, I held her hands again, and told her, ” I’m going to go home now and I love you.” Mom woke up, looked me in the eyes and said, “I love you too.” Then she closed her eyes and dozed off.
If that scene could play out when it is mom’s turn to pass on, I would be the happiest daughter in that moment. I WANT that perfect scenario again as she passes into her rest. I WANT IT!
I am expecting mom to pass this year. When she was 90, she said she would die when she was 95. She is 95. Mother has always been quite prophetic in declaring things. So, whenever that moment will be, I am expecting it to be the perfect scenario of recognition and love.
Stay safe, warm, deeply loved.